Cause, reality do suck sometimes.I don't have any idea of what I'm supposed to do. I thought, it will get better as it goes. Yet, I'm so damn wrong. Things seem not to be going the way I want. Ha, since when things are set in the way I want? Without me doing any effort to make damn sure it will happen. Laughs, I guess, I will just keep laughing my way through everything. Cause, I don't really wish to drop any crystals anymore.
&- I do really wish that someone could help me. I wish that you could understand how I feel, without me saying much. But, it will never happen.
I'm tired, off to sleep. Sorry, Benjamin.
&- perhaps, im jealous.