Shall not praise blogger anymore. Grrr.

Ohmygod. I realised that I didn't replied manymany tags already. Bwahahhas.

Kenneth: T.T Nvm... Dun mind bringing laughter to brighten ppl's life for a few days... XD
HuiXin - Hahahs. Okay. Then become laughter god? Lols. :D
Justin: Dont Bully Myraa ):
HuiXin - No one is bullying her?
zakiah(: yeahs , we shud wait for RJ's holiday . lol . and i tot RJ stands for ReflectionJournal . hahaha . did too many RJ's lerh until think wrongly , yeahs . lets go flyer . night view very nice ehs , but gotta plan well okay ?
HuiXin - Let's see. Ers, I will ask them again when the date gets nearer? So, leave your 14th Sept freeeeeeeeeeeeeee. Okay? :D Yes, too much RJ le lahs. Hahahs. Break away from RJ for the time being! :D
Justin: Brave. I need it more than you do.
HuiXin - Hahahs. I know.
shao chun: after all, you will definately pass it!!believe in yourself!!
HuiXin - Hahahs. When is the results out? D:
bryon: try ur best k. lets put it this way. u r tough if u can pull through wiithout it.
HuiXin - Hahahs. Okay. I'm tough. Tougher than Justin. Bwahahahs.
shao chun: omg, you still watch the animal?? is like repeating many times already!!
HuiXin - I never watch before. Cannot ah?
Kenneth: HX!!! Dun stress! Pls pls pls... Dun take up *** ok!
HuiXin - Yesyesyes. --"
bryon: hey. my advice to u is this, go to the student portal go see the past papers. then u do it. u can get a feel of what gonna come. nice story.. its to liittle inperfections that makes like perfect for us haha^^
HuiXin - You know what? I already got those papers printed. --" Hahahs. From Saky Baby. Hahahs. :D Little imperfections? Oh, well. Quite true huh? :D
Kenneth: Haha.. Nice story... Didnt tear thou... kinda expect smth would happen le... lol.
HuiXin - What did you expect to happen?
darren =D: lols the next time i go toyrus i going make it upside down =D heyhey ! what elephant?zzz
HuiXin - Hahahs. You so fat (cause elephant is big sized). So, yeah. Confirm upside down. Hahahs. Evil lehs you. Then the kids don't need ride already. All thanks to you huh? --"
Huishan: Nice story! (:
HuiXin - Hahahs. :D
lawrence: nice story... ^^ and happy holidays to u too
HuiXin - Happy holidays too! :D
darren =D: long story !lazy read
HuiXin - You very lazy lehs. Read only, doesn't require too much of your precious time. --"
Daryl~chew: tag
HuiXin - Hellos.
shao chun: what you mean of go out??XD ..we do go out to plan for the chalet!!XD
HuiXin - Hahahs. Go out play! :D
Justin: I want to _____ ):. haha, but then no one want me help me buy ):
HuiXin - L-I-A-R.
shao chun: about the lend e place to put e stuffs, is all right to me!!but feel weird again...XD & about martell,lucky i never put alot,or else everyone will want to drink more!!hehe
HuiXin - Hahahs. Feel weird again? Why? Hahahs. --" Eh, martell? Laughs. Then everyone gets drowsy. Hahahs. Stuck in your home already.
Kenneth: I oso wan drink... Mayb get drunk too...
HuiXin - You will get drunk too? Hahahs. Okay. Bet tomorrow many drunken(sp?). :D
Kenneth: Hahaha... Really paiseh. Ya lo.. Tats why must buy concession ma
HuiXin - But, I not every time also take bus mahs. Okay. I'm deciding to buy or not. D:
alden: did i hear fooooooooooooood? rawrs lets go find some food yums!
HuiXin - DH. --" Hahahs. Tomorrow BBQ for me, okay? :D
Justin: Lol. Sometimes i also like that haha
HuiXin - Like that what?
shao chun: hx- cause comment here is easier than that side!!XD..btw,alden,rmb to help us BBQ..dun just eat!!
HuiXin - Hahahs. Fine. Then I have to come here &- reply. --" There you click on the 'Leave a comment' jiu okay le mahs. Not mehs? Hahahs. Nonono. Everyone BBQ for meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee, the xiao meimei. --" Laughs.

Okay. Woke up and watched drama. --" Damn mundane right? Someone asks me out, please. Okay, elephant gna stomp at me if he saw this. --"

Met ShiQi at Kovan bus stop. &- Something stupid/silly/embarrassed thing happened. I called ShiQi cause she hid herself. --" Beside her was a lady(?), whom both of us don't know. (obviously you wont know your stranger eh?) So, I walked over and thinking: "Wahs. ShiQi dress until so mature ah?" As I approached that lady, I talked to her and almost wanted to sit beside her. She stunned at me and move so that I could sit. Then, I realised that, SHE WASN'T SHIQI. Damn it. Freaking paiseh. The next moment, faster hide beside ShiQi. Damn paiseh, can!? Imagine you talking to someone who you thought he/she was your friend/cousin/whoever. --" Ohmygod.

Reached TPY, and took photos. Hahahs. Waiting for cousy to upload it to facebook so that I can grab from there? :D Chat-ed with them and played cards. Dady came to fetch meeeeeeeeeeeeeee. Woots! Poly bus fare is seriously expensive. ):

Hahahs. Found this blogskin, and blogger is back to normal. Wodegod. I don't know whether I should continue with blogger or wordpress. Peek-a-boo. Hahahs. Nevermind, if there's any special special thingy, then go wordpress and check it out. Laughs.

&- Find me weirdo, cause I just said I'm doing all my post in wordpress already.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. I DON'T KNOW LAHS.

okays. I'm hungry.
Let's go hunt for foooooooooooooooooooooooooood! :D

I'M NOT DELETING AWAY THIS BLOGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG! :D

BUT, I'M DOING ALL MY POSTING IN WORDPRESS ALREADY. (:

Click Click: http://sweeetlycoated.wordpress.com

Remember to leave your comment, okay?

Thankyou very much! :D

Dumb Blogger! !#$%^&*()@

Okay, I have set up my wordpress already. Hahahs! Logged in here to update about the link. &- Guess what I found out? My blogger is back to normal. --" Dumb right? Whatever shit. Not going to delete my wordpress nor my blogger. Keeping both. Still thinking which to blog till later.

http://sweeetlycoated.wordpress.com

Yups. That's the link. Click on it. Though, it's not that nice. But, well. Sighs. Blogger ah blogger. Why are you like this to me!?

I'm hungry. But I have no appetite to eat.
I'm hating blogger real soon. Cause I have no idea why is it not fixed yet?
I'm so going to jump to any journal-website. So, any recommendation? :D
I'm so bored right now. Anyone wants to go out? D:

Mark this date! :D

Triple good news eh! :D

1. I ended all my exams already! BWAHAHAHS!
2. I'm enjoying my holidays already! BWAHAHAHS (x2)!
3. I celebrated 28months with boy! BWAHAHAHS (x3)!

BPM paper was fine. JUST THAT I DON'T HAVE THE TIME TO FINISH THAT WHOLE DAMN PAPER. 2hours is way too insufficient. Got my points there. But then, haiz. Anyways, thankyou, AhZheng, for accompanying me to find Ms.Jo to clarify my doubts. :D Thankyou very much. &- Thanks to him to talk about iforgotwhat questions which got me reading about it. Hahahs! &- Of course, it came out! :D

Bus-ed to DownTown East with boy to watch 'Where got ghost?' movie. Laugh-able, no storyline, and my boy torturedbullied me. Hahahs. I covered my eyes with my hand then he removed my hand from my eyes. )':

(&- i don't know why I can't upload pictures into blogger. ):)

HAPPY 28TH MONTH-SARY, QJH! :D

Communication is the keeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeey! :D

Received this email from YuPing. Found it touching and I don't know why, I teared. --" Am here to share it with you, lovelies. :D

I deleted away some unecessary parts, or else, it will be one big chuck of words here, alright! :D
(okay, it's a really big chuck. So, I think, I shall just copy and paste everything.)

This is long but worth reading and is true story ... a story for all the single, married, divorced, widowed individuals, who take life for granted. Please read this story until the end, it is such an eye opener. You never know ...........!

Just two years after our marriage, hubby brought up the idea of asking Mother to move from the rural hometown and spend her remaining years with us. Hubby's father passed away while he was still very young. Mother endured much hardship and struggled all on her own to provide for him, see him through to a university degree. You could say that she suffered a great deal and did everything you could expect of a woman to bring hubby to where he is today.

I immediately agreed and started packing the spare room, which has a balcony facing the South to let her enjoy the sunshine and plant greenery. Hubby stood in the bright room, and suddenly just picked me up and started spinning round and round. As I begged him to put me down, he said: "Lets go fetch mother."

Hubby is tall and big sized and I love to rest on his chest and enjoy the feeling that he could pick me up at any moment put the tiny me into his pockets.Whenever we have an argument and both refuses to back down, he would pick me up and spin me over his head continuously until I surrender and beg for mercy. I became addicted to this kind of panic-joy feeling.

Mother brought along her countryside habits and lifestyle with her. For example; I am so used to buying flowers to decorate the living room, she could not stand it and would comment: "I do not know how you young people spend your money, why do you buy flowers for? You also can't eat flowers!" I smiled and said: "Mum, with flowers in the house, our mood will also become better."

Mother continues to grumble away, and hubby smiled: "Mum, this is a city-people's habit; slowly you will get use to it." Mother stopped saying anything. But every time thereafter, whenever I came home with flowers, she would ask me how much it costs. I told her and she would shake her head and express displeasure. Sometimes, when I come home with lots of shopping bags, she would ask each and every item how much they cost, I would tell her honestly and she would get even more upset about it. Hubby playfully pinched my nose and said: "You little fool, just don't tell her the full price of everything would solve it."

There begins the friction to our otherwise happy lifestyle. Mother hates it most when hubby wakes up early to prepare the breakfast. In her view, how could the man of the house cook for the wife? At the breakfast table, mother facial expression is always like the dark clouds before a thunderstorm and I would pretend not to notice. She would use her chopsticks and make a lot of noise with it as her silent protest.

As I am a dance teacher in the Children's Palace and am exhausted from a long day of dancing around, I do not wish to give up the luxury of that additional few minutes in the comfort of my bed and hence I turned a deaf ear to all the protest mother makes.

From time to time, mother would help out with some housework, but soon her help created additional work for me. For example: she would keep all kinds of plasticbags accumulating them so that she sell them later on, and resulted in our house being filled with all the trash bags; she would scrimp on dish washing detergent whe helping to wash the dishes and so as not to hurt her feelings, I would quietly wash them again.

One day, late at night, mother saw me quietly washing the dishes, and "Bam" she slams her bedroom door and cried very loudly in her room. Hubby was placed in a difficult position, and after that, he did not speak to me for that entire night. I pretended to be a spoilt child, tried acting cute, but he totally ignored me.... I got mad and asked him: "What did I do wrong?" Hubby stared at me and said: "Can't you just give in to her once? We couldn't possibly die eating from a bowl however unclean it is, right?"

After that incident, for a long period of time, mother did not speak to me and you can feel that there is a very awkward feeling hanging in the house. During that period of cold war, hubby was caught in dilemma as to who to please.

In order to stop her son from having to prepare breakfast, mother took on the "all important" task of preparing breakfast without any prompting. At the breakfast table, mother would look at hubby happily eating his breakfast and cast that reprimanding stare at me for having failed to perform my duty as a wife.

To avoid the embarrassing breakfast situation, I resorted to buying my own breakfast on my way to work. That night, while in bed, hubby was a little upset and asked me: "LD, is it because you think that mum's cooking is not clean that's why you chose not to eat at home?" He then turned his back on me and left me alone in tears as feeling of unfairness overwhelmed me. After some time, hubby sighed: "LD, just for me, can you have breakfast at home?" I am left with no choice but to return to the breakfast table.

The next morning, I was having porridge prepared by mother and I felt a sudden churn in my stomach and everything inside seem to be rushing up my throat. I tried to suppress the urge to throw up but I could not. I threw down the bowl, rushed into the washroom, and vomited everything out. Just as I was catching my breath, I saw mother crying and grumbling very loudly in her dialect, hubby was standing at the washroom doorway staring at me with fire burning in his eyes.. I opened my mouth but no words came out of it, I really did not mean it.

We had our very first big fight that day; mother took a look at us, then stood up and slowly made her way out of the house. Hubby gave me a final stare in the eye and followed mother down the stairs. For three days, hubby did not return home, not even a phone call.

I was so furious, since mother arrived; I had been trying my best and putting up with her, what else do you want me to do? For no reason, I keep having the feeling to throw up and I simply have not appetite for food, coupled with all the events happening at home, I was at then low point in my life.

Finally, a colleague said: "LD, you look terrible; you should go and see a doctor." The doctor confirmed that I am pregnant.Now it became clear to me why Ithrew up that fateful morning, a sense of sadness floated through that otherwise happy news. Why didn't hubby, and mother who had been through this before, thought of the possibility of this being the reason that day?

At the hospital entrance, I saw my hubby standing there. It had only been three days, but he looked haggard. I had wanted to turn and leave, but one look at him and my heart soften, I couldn't resist and called out to him. He followed my voice and finally found me but he pretended that he doesn't know me; he has that disgusted look in his eyes that cut right through my heart. I told myself not to look at him anymore, and hail a cab. At that moment, I have such a strong urge inside me to shout to my hubby: "Darling, I am having your baby!" and have him lift me up and spin me around in circles of joy. What I wanted didn't happen and as I sat in the cab, my tears started rolling down. Why? Why our love couldn't even withstand the test of one fight? Back home, I lay on the bed thinking about my hubby, and the disgusted look in his eyes. I cried and wet the corner of the blanket.

That night, sound of the drawers opening woke me up. I switched on the lights and I saw hubby with tears rolling down his face. He was removing the money. I stared at him in silence; he ignored me, took the bank deposit book and some money and left the house. Maybe he really intends to leave me for good. What a rational man, so clear-cut in love and money matters. I gave a few dried laugh and tears starting streaming down again.

The next day, I did not go to work. I wanted to clear this out and have a good talk with hubby. I reached his office and his secretary gave me a weird look and said: "Mr. Tan's mother had a traffic accident and is now in the hospital." I stood there in shock. I rushed to the hospital and by the time I found hubby, mother had already passed away. Hubby did not look at me, his face was expressionless. I looked at mother's pale white and thin face and I couldn't control the tears in my eyes.

My god, how could this happen? Throughout the funeral, hubby did not say a single word to me, with only the occasional disgusted stare at me. I only managed to find out brief facts about the accident from other people. That day, after mother left the house, she walked in dazed toward the bus stop, apparently intending to go back to her old house back in the countryside. As hubby ran after her, she tried to walk faster and as she tried to cross the street, a public bus came and hit her...I finally understood how much hubby must hate me, if I had not thrown up that morning, if we had not quarreled, if....In his heart, I am indirectly the killer of his mother.

Hubby moved into mother's room and came home every night with a strong liquor smell on him. And me, I am buried under the guilt and self-pity and could hardly breathe. I wanted to explain to him, tell him that we are going to have our baby soon, but each time, I saw the dead look in his eyes, all the words I have at the brink of my mouth just fell back in. I had rather he hit me real hard or give me a big and thorough scolding though none of these events happening had been my fault at all.

Many days of suffocating silence went by and as the days went by, hubby came home later and later. The deadlock between us continues, we were living together like strangers who don't know each other. I am like the dead knot in his heart.

One day, I passed by a western restaurant, looking into the glass window, I saw hubby and a girl sitting facing each other and he very lightly brushed her hair for her, I understood what it meant. After recovering from that moment of shock, I entered the restaurant, stood in front of my hubby and stared hard at him, not a tear in my eyes. I have nothing to say to him, and there is no need to say anything. The girl looked at me, looks at hubby, stands up and wanted to go, hubby stretched out his hand and stopped her. He stared back at me,challenging me.

I can only hear my slow heart beat, beating, one by one as if at the brink of death. I eventually backed down, if I had stood that any longer, I will collapse together with the baby inside me. That night, he did not come home; he had chosen to use that as a way to indicate to me:

Following mother's death so did our love for each other. He did not come home anymore after that. Sometimes, when I returned home from work, I can tell that the cupboard had been touched - he had returned to take some of his stuff. I no longer wish to call him; the initial desire to explain everything to him vanished. I lived alone; I go for my medical checkups alone, my heart breaks again and again every time I see a guy carefully helping his wife through the physical examination. My office colleagues hinted to me to consider aborting the baby, I told them No, I will not.. I insisted onhaving this baby, perhaps it is my way of repaying mother for causing her death.

One day, I came home and I saw hubby sitting in the living room. The whole house was filled with cigarette smoke. On the coffee table, there was this piece of paper. I know what it is all about without even looking at it. In the two months plus of living alone, I have gradually learned to find peace within myself. I looked at him, removed my hat and said: "You wait a while, I will sign." He looked at me, mixed feelings in his eyes, just like mine. As I hang up my coat, I keep repeating to myself "You cannot cry, you cannot cry..." my eyes hurt terribly, but I refused to let tears come out from there. After I hung up my coat, hubby's eyes stared fixed at my bulging tummy. I smiled, walked over to the coffee table and pulled the paper towards me. Without even looking at what it says, I signed my name on it and pushed the paper to him. "LD, are you pregnant?"

Since mother's accident, this is the first time he spoke to me. I could not control my tears any further and they fell like raindrops. I said: "Yes, but its ok, you can leave now." He did not go, in the dark, we sat, facing each other. Hubby slowly moved over me, his tears wet the blanket. In my heart, everything seems so far away, so far that even if I sprint, I could never reach them. I cannot remember how many times he repeated "sorry" to me. I had originally thought that I would forgive him, but now I can't. In the western restaurant, in front of that girl, that cold look in his eyes, I will never forget, ever. We have drawn such deep scars in each other's heart.

For me, it's unintentional; for him, totally intentional. I had been waiting for this moment of reconciliation, but I realized now, what had gone past is gone forever and could not repeated. Other than the thought of the baby inside me that would bring some warmth to my heart, I am totally cold towards him, I no longer eat anything he buys for me, I don't take any presents from him and I stopped talking to him.
From the moment I signed on that piece of paper, marriage and love had vanished from my heart. Sometimes, hubby will try to come into the bedroom, but when he walks in, I will walk out to the living room. He had no choice but to sleep in mother's room. At night, from his room, I can hear light sounds of groaning, I kept quiet. This used to be his trick; last time, whenever I ignore him, he would fake illness and I will surrender and find out what is wrong with him, he would then grab me and laugh. He has forgotten that last time I cared for him and am concerned because there was love, but now, what is there between us? Hubby's groaning came on and off continuing but I continuously ignored him.

Almost everyday, he would buy something for the baby, infant products, children products and books that kids like to read. Bags and bags of it stacked inside his room till it is full. I know he is trying to use this to reach out to me, but I am no longer moved by his actions. He has no choice but to lock himself in his room and I can hear his typing away on his computer keyboard, maybe he is now addicted to web surfing but none of that matters to me anymore.

It was sometime towards the end of spring in the following year, one late night, I screamed because of a sudden stomach pain, hubby came rushing into the room, its like he did not change and sleep, and had been waiting for this moment. He carried me and ran down the stairs, stopped a car, holding my hand very tightly and kept wiping the sweat off my brow, throughout the journey to the hospital.

Once we reached the hospital, he carried me and hurried into the delivery suite. Lying on the back of his skinny but warmth body, a thought crossed my mind: In my lifetime, who else would love me as much as he did? He held the delivery suite door opened and watch me go in; his warm eyes caused me to manage a smile at him despite my contraction pain. Coming out of the delivery room, hubby looked at our son and me, eyes tear with joy and he kept smiling. I reached out and touched his hand. Hubby looked at me, smiling and then he slowly collapsed onto the floor. I cried out for him in pain... He smiled, but without opening that tired eyes of his... I had thought that I would never shed any tear for him, but the truth is, I have never felt a deeper pain cutting through my body at that moment.
Doctor said that by the time hubby discovered he had liver cancer, it was already in terminal stage and it was a miracle that he managed to last this long. I asked the doctor when he first discovered he had cancer. Doctor said about 5 months ago and consoled me saying: "Prepare for his funeral."
I disregarded the nurse's objection and rushed home, I went into his room and checked his computer, and a suffocating pain hits me. Hubby's cancer was discovered 5 months ago, his groaning was real, and I had thought that... the computer showed over 200 thousand words he wrote for our son:
"Son, just for you, I have persisted, to be able to take a look at you before I fall, is my biggest wish now... I know that in your life, you will have many happiness and maybe some setbacks, if only I can accompany you throughout that journey, how nice would it be. But daddy now no longer has that chance. Daddy has written inside here all the possible difficulties and problems you may encounter during your lifetime, when you meet with these problems, you can refer to daddy's suggestion....
Son, after writing these 200 thousand words, I feel as if I have accompanied you through life journey. To be honest, daddy is very happy. Do love your mother, she has suffered, she is the one who loves you most and also the one who loves me most..."

From play school to primary school, to secondary, university, to work and even in dealing with questions of love, everything big and small was written there. Hubby has also written a letter for me: "My dear, to marry you is my biggest happiness, forgive me for the pain I have caused you, forgive me for not telling you my illness, because I want to see you be in a joyful mood waiting for the arrival of our baby...My dear, if you cried, it means that you have forgiven me and I would smile, thank you for loving me...These presents, I'm afraid I cannot give them to our son personally, could you help me to give some of them to him every year, the dates on what to give when are all written on the packaging... "

Going back to the hospital, hubby is still in coma. I brought our son over and place him beside him. I said: "Open your eyes and smile, I want our son to remember being in the warmth of your arms..." He struggled to open his eyes and managed a weak smile. Our son still in his arms was happily waving his tiny hands in the air. I press the button on the camera and the sound of the shutter rang through the air as tears slowly rolled down my face....

A fatal misunderstanding and the person who loves me the most in this world is gone forever..."Cruel misunderstandings one after another disrupted the blissful footsteps to our family. Our originals intend of having Mother enjoy some quiet and peaceful moments in her remaining years with us went terribly wrong as destiny's secret is finally revealed at a price, every thing became too late.".........

This is a true story.

LEARNING POINT - DO NOT EVER HOLD ON TO OFFENCES!!! I am totally speechless, this story brought tears to my eyes as I read through each line eager to know what would happen next. It truly showed the devastating power of grudges and anger! Simple humility and communication would have resolved most of the problems in that story, as well as patience.... This story has really touched my heart and life as a whole and it has stimulated a paradigm shift. Though it is very sad, it is also very refreshing to know that from today, I can consciously start to live a life free of grudge. People please let's live a life devoid of grudge. Communication is key. Take greatest care and live on.

- credits to: the person who typed this story, the person who send this email out, the person(YP) for forwarding it to me.

Aww. This story makes me think of my grandma. --" Perhaps, I shall just accept all her flaws since no one is perfect. &- I'm not that perfect in all ways. But, sometimes, things just get onto my nerves.

Okay, I'm going to enjoy my brunch now. YES, IT'S 3.50PM. Hahahs. Bye, lovelies. Hope you enjoy that story and tearrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr (like me!)

Scold me, Yell at meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

ARGHS. NO MOTIVATION, NO FEEL. HOW AM I GOING TO PASS BPM IN THIS SITUATION? NONONO. THIS CANT BE IT, HUIXIN.

)':

WHERE IS MY MOTIVATION TO STUDYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!? It seems that many people around me have lost their motivation to do so. Hmphs. Don't dare to open my window right now. Making my room so stuffy. ARGHS. That wont help me in my revision. NO WAY!

BPM on Monday. &- I'm going to find myself a job. Yay! I need one way or another to ensure that my shopping spreeeeeeeeeeeeeee will be enjoyable. BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHS. Okay, pratically, studies is going to make me go !#$%^&*()@

Am watching the animal right now. Hahahs. Freaking funny. It's making me LAUGH OUT LOUD, :D

Too tough to puff or,
puff to be tough?

Walked in that stupid sports hall with confidence, walked out of it with sadness.

1. I'm feeling sad and lost right now.
2. I'm on the verge of breaking down soon.
3. I didn't get to finish my SAS paper.
4. I regretted to focus too much on SDLC and it didn't came out that much.
5. I regretted not to reading more on fact-findings.
6. ( Blue Lagoon ) + ( Jerk BBQ + Pespi ) = TUMMY PAIN! D:
7. I gave it a thought, I WOULD SAY. &- I'm not sure whether I will be able to accept the consequences.
8. I would seriously love to try ...
9. I'm sooooooooooooo not myself right now.
10. I think I need a nap.

AFTER ALL THIS, I told myself, I'm a brave girl (i think).

REPLY OF TAGS! :D

Justin: Thankyou for helping me to take my lappy lahs. THANKYOU VERY MUCH. --"
Zakiah: You-know-what-I-know? HUHS!? Hahahs. Eh, we wait for RJ's holiday. Okay? :D
Kenneth: Not die lahs. I don't know lehs. Cause I keep buying clothes. &- He reads my blog sometimes. --"
Myra: Yes, there is. You are supposed to ask whether you2 can be friends anot. HAHAHS.
ShaoChun: First to nag at me will be you. --"
Zakiah: Yesyesyes. Coming sooooooooooooooon.
ShaoChun: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHS! It's over.
Lawrence: Hey, thankyou! :D Goodluck for your exams too.
Kenneth: Hahahs. See how it goes.
Bryon: Brainwashing? Hahahs.
Justin: I'm not a bottle of coke. --"
Abrel: Yesyesyes.
Justin: Hahahs. I'm not evil.
Kenneth: Don't cry, okay. I give you wet tissue, okay.
Zakiah: Flyer? Okay, no problem. Hahahs. I'm fine with it.
Abrel: YESYESYES. NOW. --"

My hearts say ...
im evil.
(dont come near me)

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHS! I wrote that on boy's hand just now. Hehehs. Slept till around 12pm? Prepared, and met boy. Late brunch at Mos, been a long time since I last ate there eh? :D Walked alil' before settling down at starbucks.

I tell you, weather is freaking hot nowadays! ROARS! Got bored at around 7pm? Random photos, random writings and random messages. Laughs. Messaged YanLing using boy's phone. &- She wasn't fooled by me AT ALL. Aww, that's not fun. Messaging with her was well, fun? Damn random, I tell you. Obsessed eh? :D

Had my dinner, walked around, homed.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO ESTHER. :D
(thanks for the invitation!)
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO LIONEL. :D
(doubt you will see this, --")
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO QICHENG. :D
(apologised for the last minute celebration, ):)

&- I'm sorry about it, Alden. ): I lend your my craziness, okay? :D

World Stealing Day eh?

If today would be the world stealing day, what will you snatch from me?

That, above, was sent to me BY ALDEN. Hahahs. &- my reply was YOUR DARKHOLE! :D Using your darkhole, I can devour all delicious food. YUMS! Of course, I can darkhole what I want too. *big grins!

Anyway, I did forward that message to boy and ShiQi too. Laughs. ShiQi's typical reply. --" Use your brainy to think what she wants to steal. It's very very typical of her, okay. &- Alden wants to steal my craziness. --"

Ohya, thcrazylil'girl got her hair cut today (sunday)! Trimmed and shorten. I'm trying to tell myself it's shorten by a bit. But, of course, it seems to be a lie. --" Aww, my long hair. Shall not do any cutting to my hair till (let's seeeeeeeeeeeee.) next year? Hahahs. Wait till it grows long enough, okay. :D Kenneth got his hair cut too. Tried to persuade him to cut botak. But, well. Nevermind. THERE'S STILL NEXT YEAR. :D

I better get to bed right now. Make up lesson at 9am. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

It seems that I'm torn into pieces.
Here, and there.

BYEBYE, ISOFUN &- BBFIN. Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee, you2. You2 can join PRSP already. BWAHAHAHS!

Yes, I'm done with my ISOFUN lab test and BBFIN final quiz. &- Today doesn't seems to be a gooooooooooooooooood day for me eh? Let me tell you why.

1. Supposed to wake up at 5.45am. I WOKE UP AT 7.30AM.
2. ISOFUN codes screwed up, cause I PRACTICALLY TYPED MY MSGBOX IN THE WHILE LOOP. I RE-TYPED my codes for 3 timeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeees. T-H-R-E-E!
3. Lost my appetite for lunch. Therefore, skipped.
4. My group got A for BBFin project. :D
5. I got B + for my 75% of BBFin.
6. I was suffering from a damn freaking idiotic headache BEFORE MY BBFIN FINAL QUIZ! (underline, straightline, underline)
7. I took my BBFin final quiz with headache, and I was feeling super duper cold inside LT. Damn it. Thus, my concentration was been distracted. ):
8. I BELIEVED THAT ALL FORMULAS WILL BE GIVEN. &- I'M SO DAMN WRONG! GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.
9. Learnt my lesson not to do last minute revision. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.
10. It seems that I can't have both friends and boy at the same timeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

LASTLY, I'M HAPPY CAUSE MY HEADACHE IS GONEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. (like finally eh. --")

Whatever shit. No matter what, I'm still feeling --"

Spoil me, please.

Aww. School past very very fast (like again) today. --" Lectures short and sweet? Fell alseep during ISOFUN lecture. Bwahahahs! Damn tired. Skipped PRSP lecture, and headed to Tone with Alden, Bryon and Justin. Ate BBQ Chicken. Whatever, okay. First impression/taste of it, yummy! Shall go back for more eh? :D

Back to school for BPM's lab. Another short and sweet one eh? (: Anyways, i loveeeeeeeeeeeee playing that truth &- dare daidee, can!? Knew quite a number of truths. Shall not say anything. &- Heys, Myra! Where is your second part of your dare? Hahahs! :D

Met Boy and home sweet homeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. Weeeeeeehs! (:

&- Yesterday was Ms. Sarah's birthday. Happy (belated) birthday! :D

Sleeps, I need more of these. D:

Oh, well. Happy birthday to my aunt! :D Or in chinese, I call her "Gu-Gu". Laughs. Forgot that today was her birthday. Whoops, sorry. But still, I did wish her, okay. (:

School past very very fast today. PRSP, break, SAS, end. Laughs. Sleepy mood, nothing much eh?

Oh, thankyou very very much to those who helped me in PHP. Manymany loveeeeeeeeeeeeees, (: Especially K for helping me to buy papers to print my notes and helping me in codes, P for helping me in codes and S for carrying my stuffs for me. &- I forgot who carried my lappy up to PRSP lab. Thankyou very very much, you know who you are. :D

On a lighter note, PHP will not be bugging me till Sem 1.2 starts.
On a sad-er note, we still have to learn PHP till Sem 2.1 ends.
On a happier note, I can ignore PHP for the time being.
On a stress-er note, I got many many more to do right now.

Kenneth: Yay! I bought it. Whoops. Will my boyf see this? Die ah.
Zakiah: Hmms, let's see. Ask them for their opinions. Eh, suggest one place to go first lehs, (:
ShaoChun: Hahahs. It's over, :D
Justin: Hahahs. Partly, it's mine. D:
Cheryl: Sure, (:
Desmond: Suresure, (:
ShaoChun: --"
Darren: Suresuresure, (:
Daryl: Ers? --"

Changi Airport.

Laughs. From Terminal 1, I took skytrain to Terminal 3 to meet them. &- I got lost. AhZheng, Kenneth and Patricia came for my rescue. Laughs. Meet Justin &- Co. Walked over to Terminal 2 then skytrain-ed to Terminal 1. Laughs. End up, we took the skytrain back to terminal 2! Roars! A trial around Changi Aiport Terminals. Laughs. --"

Currently at Fish &- Co. With AhZheng, Benjamin, Justin, Kenneth, Patricia and ShaoChun. Bryon and ZhiYi (?) came. &- Both of them are gone already. --"

Yeah! HuiXin is supposed to do her PHP. But, I don't know what to do lehs. Die. PRSP lab test tomorrow. Freak. Haven't do anything about it yet.

&- Benjamin is looking at my lappy right now. LAUGHS!

I doubt you guys will know.

Arghs. If studies don't have the potential of driving me crazy, Dady &- Grandma do. Yes, goodluck in doing so. Okay? You guys will definitely see me going bonkers soon. Be it due to studies or family. Freak. ):

&- now, my head is spinning.

When everything's transformed into past.

Went to cousy's house for Crystal's birthday celebration in advance. Woots! Quite long never see them le, that includes CKG. Laughs. Even though our schools are a few steps away, we don't seems to have that fate to meet anymore eh. ): Oh, well. Lewin is still as cute as ever, (: &- Crystal's friend has the same name as mine! EXACTLY THE SAME. --" Now, I know 2 person with the same exact name as me, including my LEE, please. Oh, so coincidence eh? (:

Boy came over to fetch me. Hahahs. Over to Kovan to have my supper, as for him, should be dinner eh? Told him what happened in cousy's house. Laughs. Damn funny. I got sucha funny group of cousys, okay. :D

thcrazylil'girl wants to:

• watch the movie: UP
• watch the movie: G Force
• watch the movie: New Moon
• go outing with cousys
• dinner with cousys
• go outing with lovelies
• celebrate 24th with boy.

(oh, well. tags to be replied soon, okay?)

I think, I have just turned into the most evil girlf in the whole world.

I could, eventually, typed out something I doubt I did type before. Laughs. Is it cruel enough, I'm asking myself. I merely want you to concentrate on your projects and upcoming exams. Don't ask me why I become like this. Cause, I, myself, don't know what happen to me. On the outer surface, I'm happy. But, the inner me is not feeling so. I don't like it. How the hell did I do to make us like this? I wonder. &- I can't think of any reason forcing me to be like this. &- The whole damn main thing is, how did I message such a sentence out. Laughs. I'm going bonkers soon. IMH, is there a place for me? )':

I think, I have just hurt both you and me. Even if you didn't feel so, I do. Cause I don't know what's going on with me. Black clouds, thunderstorm. That's what they said, and how I felt right now.

I'm sincerely sorry.

A nutshell without its nut, ):

School today wasn't that bad. Aww. Mr Ooi said that BBFin coursework grade will be shown next friday. Freak, I hope next Friday will be a nice day for me, yeah. Cause I'm having ISOFUN lab test in the morning, getting back BBFin coursework grade in the noon and taking BBFin final quiz in the evening. LAUGH-OUT-LOUD! See, I'm having a tight schedule next friday. Other than that, I'm having PRSP lab test 2 on tuesday &- SAS lab interview on thursday. HAHAHS. HuiXin is going crazy soon, eh. This long weekend isn't for me to slack. I got to get my SAS's exercise on input/output design done by idontknowwhen, and my Project's input/output design by thursday. Hahahs. I'm going crazy soon. Yes, soon.

Hahahs. Enough of schoolwork, bought loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee just now. Yums! :D It's on my dinning table. Haven't touch it yet. Nopes, not yet. I'm going to enjoy it tomorrow. Laughs, :D

I'm yearning for some shopping. I love that TopShop shorts. But they don't have my size already. ): HuiXin is so going to search for it when she happens to spot any TopShop. Aww. Bryon, I think I love that top too. Hahahs. --"

Darren: YOYOYO! :D
ShaoChun: At least, you wasn't nervous. :D
JueYing: Thankyou.
Zakiah: Hahahs. Eh, you should be touched, like duh! :D Shit, I keep forgetting to ask. Ask who? Hehehs.
Justin: Shutup. I'm seriously scared of injections.

Vampire Potion, Blue Lagoon.

Over to opposite campus to get Bubble Teas and McDonalds! Sighs. thcrazylil'girl has been eating McDonalds at least twice for this 2 weeks. Arlamaks. :x

Laughs. Vampire potion? Yes, it's one of the bubble teas sold in that shop. Laughs. Alden and Justin bought it. Tried it, and there we go. A vampire family is formed. Laughs. Funny eh? --" Ordered Blue Lagoon instead. Well, it tasted nice. Do try when you are over there, okay. (:

I'm being nice enough to get boy McDonalds too. Hahahs. Still deliever until where he is, okay. Seeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee, I'm so good. Hahahs. --"

Whatever shit, my chest bone (or whatever you call it) hurts! I don't know why. I'm so scared cause Dady scared me. --" Hope it's due to lack of sleep or whatever shit, that is positive. Not any negative stuffs, please! Sighs.

thcrazylil'girl is putting up a brave front right now. she feels tired. yet, she doesn't know what to do. sighs. she's going to sleep, to recover all her lack of sleep. also, dont try to guess what she's thinking. cause you will never guess it right. because she dont know what she's thinking too. and the main thing is, she is trying to be crazy for the sake of it.

Way too paranoid.

I had a moment to myself, thinking why is it this and why is it that? I realised that all I have done, I seems to be regretting at least 1/4 of them for doing so. I don't know why. I don't wish to have any ruined life or neither do I want a stupidest little stain on it. Freak, it's seriously freaking me out. Am I game enough for all the challenges set for me as time goes by? &- I do hope to hear all truth answers to my questions. Say the truth straight to my face. Though I might end up tearing, I would appreciate it the most. Yet, if you are going to scold many vulgars or irrelvant things, I would appreciate it the most that you keep everything to yourself then.

Enough of those, BPM Presentation just now. I practically screwed my part up by stumbling and being nervous. &- MY FACE TURNED RED AND I COULD FEEL THE DAMN HEAT. Laughs. Even JueYing could see my red face. Freak, I'm so disappointed about myself. Shall go somewhere to emo. Yes, I should. I'm so sorry to Benjamin, JueYing, Patricia and ShaoChun.

Justin: Hahahs. Fedex alr. Didn't you receive?
Kenneth: I meant, MP. Sorry. Hahahs, I remembered your birthday, okay.
Justin: I hope that too.
Zakiah: I give you my moral support! :D Hahahs, suntan-ing? Hahahs. Later my skin not in the same tone again. Sighs. Singapore flyer? Not a bad idea. Cause your dumb mummy has not take the flyer yet. Sobs! D:
Justin: Go where? --"
JueYing: Sure. Next week! :D
Justin: Arlamaks, his mama can go there visit him de, :D I bet Myra is nodding her head too. Hehehs.
Kenneth: Yes, I meant that. Hahahs. Fish &- Co? Eh, I don't want to work in those F&B de. Cause need to get injection. NONONO.
Patricia: Hahahs. That's so evil. But I loveeeeeeeeeee it.
Zakiah: Ignore what? But, I never take before mahs. D:
Daryl: Hellos.
Justin: Her jokes are damn sicko, please.
Zakiah: Hahahs. True. Eh, anything bahs. Okay, linked you later.
Bryon: Yes, Bryon. (:
Kenneth: Hahahs. Cheerful HuiXin. Hmms, most probably coming back after her
exams, I supposed.
Zakiah: Yes, I'm looking for our date too. Ah, I go ask the rest. :D
Daryl: Laughs.

If there is what you think, :/

Sighs. I didn't say that. I really didn't mean that. You are always misinterpreting my words/sentences. Don't you find it? Just be alil' more fair to me, please. Why is it that you always got the chance to push me alil' more and there I go, CRAZY, not in the sense of craziness that I want. When everything seems to be way too heavy on me, I tend to go crazy. Yet, you are not helping. Cause, I know, you got your own stuffs/stress to handle. So, what you want me to do?

&- I tend to lie to myself.
Cause, this time round, I'm not giving in. I hope.

Whatever shit. This post is for me to post on what I'm feeling right now. Tags will be replied real soon. I'm freaking lazy and tired. Bye, I'm off to sleep.

So, yeah. Whatever. :/

In PRSP lab lesson right now. Got back PRSP lab test 1 and assignment 1 grade alr. JUST A MOMENT AGO. Unsure of whether I'm should be happy or not. Whatever shit. I'm not in the mood to smile. --" Should I smile for the sake of smiling. Laughs. Black face, yucks! D:

I seems to be at the top of the mountain now.
Either I trip and fall, or I stay and enjoy my victory.

Laughs. Can I say that currently is my crunch period? Or perhaps, everyone around me are having their crunch period right now. I learnt this word from Kenneth, I think? Laughs. Too many things on mind, I'm going to be more and more clumsier, more and more blur. I predict that. Don't laugh. Cause, I know, I'm always blur. --" I hate it. But, I can't get it. :/

Shit. I'm supposed to do my project right now. SAS, BPM's presentation, PRSP assignment, ISOFUN lab test, BBFin test. Fcuk. I'm having my CMSK communication cycle 2 this Thursday. (underline, straightline, underline) I'm sorry if I have been being a naughty girl this few days. I just need a place to vent everything. Laughs.

Oh, did I mention that I kept dropping things during BBFin lecture? Damn. Hahahs. I'm so sorry to the person sitting infront of me. I don't know why. &- Lecturer seems to be alil' --", y'know. Laughs.

ilovemyboyveryverymuch, :D - psst. be glad that i do so, (:

&- Do pardon me if I'm being alil' not myself for the next few days. Hahahs.